August 2010
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Cliche "I miss you."
I get crazy because I know you’re lying to me and I know there’s nothing I can do about it. I felt you getting distant and caring more about what people think than the fact that I needed you. Maybe I have control issues, I don’t know.
It just seems backward to care more about a scene that will spit you right back out than about the one person who will love you no matter what you...
January 2010
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“But everyone’s parents moaned on about stuff like that. Remember when you...”
– Margaret Atwood, Oryx and Crake
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Things Fall Together
I’m not the first person to contemplate the universe and its events and happenings. I’m also definitely not the first to notice that bad things and good things sometimes occur as avalanches, all rolling down the hill ready to splatter you and leave you completely frostbitten and unable to move. When I was younger, the negative avalanches seemed much more frequent. Whether this was...
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“But as the heart is tender, and the passions in these tides ebb and flow ten...”
– Laurence Sterne, Tristram Shandy
October 2009
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The Bible According to Nicole
I doubt it’s a huge secret that I’m quite unlearned in the arena of religion in general. I’ve been to church three times in my life: once with my Catholic grandmother, and twice to a Christian church to see if it was for me (it wasn’t). I’ve always admired people who’ve grown up with religion, who have had it around their entire lives to do with it what they...
July 2009
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I resemble my favorite authors in the worst kind...
My reading has recently been limited mostly to British authors of the eighteenth century and I’m hardly complaining. I find I relate more to Brits than I do to Americans these days. I drink too much, I love too much, I believe in humanity. I can admit when I make mistakes.
A major theme in my readings has been the tendency to love fast and constantly. There is never a time in my life when I...
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Waiting (from a previous blog
It always strikes me when I least expect it. Excitement (!!!) : whenever there’s something to look forward to, I take it with grace and humility until the event is a day or two from occurring and then I explode in a flurry of clumsiness, timidity and fire. Anxiety rains down over everything I do and colors my world in bright yellow and lime green, making me blind to physical reality....